As I mentioned in my previous posts, I had a 4 day weekend break. I had a LOT of rest. I did no work, not even my side project - VSJO.
But time to time it was eating at me, that I wasn't utilising all these free time to make some deep work happen. The point of me for taking a day off from work is to get some rest. That includes taking a break from my side project too (even though I didn't work on it that much last week either). But what was eating was the internalised capitalism. I need to be working on something to maximise my productivity so that I feel my worth is valued, otherwise I feel guilty for not working.
That's what I'm trying to unlearn - all the toxic productivity is not going to get any of us anywhere. Maybe some people might find the appeal, but honestly we're going to burn ourselves out before we get anywhere. I'm still reading up ways to unlearn these toxic traits but for now, the next time you and I feel worthless for resting - don't. Rest! Is! Productive! Too!