Day 74 - Live stream anxiety

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Aug 28, 2021 06:50 AM
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Aug 28, 2021 06:50 AM
Today I went on a live stream to talk about — what it is, why I built it, demo-ing the product and the process I put into it.
Big thanks to Madhuri for inviting me to share VSJO on Cold Brew & No-Code! 🥺 And also honoured to be the first non-Indian on the series 😊
Even though it felt like a casual video call with Madhuri, the fact it was a live stream got me anxious. I supposed it was the idea that the stream was recorded and everyone else can watch the video that got me anxious. Me being anxious is now caught in video and will be forever on the internet for everyone to see. I try not to let that get myself worked up though.
But like I told Jason, it's something I want to get better at — speaking in front of people. Work is a different story that I don't think I have a problem with. But when it comes to talking about my projects and interests in front of a crowd, it terrifies me a bit. Emphasis on 'in front of a crowd'. If it's 1-1, I'm not as anxious. I guess I'm worried I might let people down, and that they might find me an impostor. As I'm typing this, I literally just realised it's my impostor syndrome striking again. At least I managed to put a finger to the anxiety in writing now.
I'll try to address that in another post instead.