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Subconsciously I’ve always been tired of the default narrative that most people choose to take, while I dream of alternatives. However, I’d been living my many years in slow burn, going from one thing to another — I suppose it’s “easier” that way instead of taking the risk to explore the unknown. It’s not necessarily bad per se, but my heart wasn’t fully in the work I’d been doing then. Maybe that was also why I struggled to articulate my thoughts into the right words, because the work didn’t matter. Self-help books help to a certain extent, but they didn’t feel complete. I want to say introspection has always been a big part of my life, but it’s mostly because of the pandemic that I made me take introspection more seriously. I do this by journaling daily, as well as reviewing my week, month, quarter and year. I also completed a 50-hour yin yoga training to help integrate my current writing and introspection methods with yin. Making introspection my habit helped me in writing to learn and think better, and ultimately to seek and live my “authentic” self whatever that may be. (However, I may also be slowly adopting the belief that life doesn’t always need to be purposeful. If you’re having fun surrounded by people you love, isn’t that already enough?) I lead with curiosity to explore and try different things with zero judgement, so I can get to know myself better (know what I want and don’t want) and be more in tune with my mind and body. I don’t know how to articulate (yet) how much this method has been almost life-changing for me, because by taking a leap of faith and courage, I think I’m slowly starting to see where I want to put my focus on. I’m growing, nourishing, and (un)learning to be and live a better (more authentic) version of myself is a long process, but I’m learning to accept it’s okay to not have all the answers now. And I try to be excited for what’s yet to come. This quote is the main driver of what I’m learning to accept: